so after being required to meet with student counseling yesterday for defending myself in class again/having an outburst (albeit loudly, but i didnt do anything out of the question), and then crying and being a huge mess, blah blah, and talking to the head of student counseling i decided to leave my thesis class for the rest of the year and instead do an independent study with my department chair. we’ll meet every other week and discuss my work one on one. it was hard for me to make the decision but i’m sure it’ll be better.

i’m sure my classmates viewed it as a copout and as taking the cushy easy way out, being a crybaby, whatever and for a few days i did too, but at the end of the day i’m not gonna waste any more of my time on these morons. i hold stephen (department chair)’s opinion in a much higher regard, he understands still life, and he actually knows how to critique it. its hard to know when to walk away from a bad situation or whether to keep fighting, but i couldn’t reassure them that i wouldn’t blow up and fight with these idiots again. i feel bad abandoning the few allies i have in that class and leaving them to fend for themselves, and i hope they understand why i did this. why should i waste time and money being miserable? these people arent going to change, their opinion of me and my work isnt going to change. i havent benefited from them at all, all these people did was rob me of my confidence and break my spirit. so fuck these assholes, i dont give a shit anymore. i’m making positive decisions for myself. 

“i dont care what you think of me, i dont hear what you say. you never had it, you never will. keep your mouth shut and worry about yourself.”

1. adolescents said: sorry people suck! i hope everything works out for you!
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3. nonnaihr said: you go girl.
4. algalblooms said: sometimes people are assholes, and it’s better just to not waste your time & energy on them.
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